can't describe my feeling rite now~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

Owh~ apekah perasaan aku ini?? cant describe it.. cold like ice? hot like fire? spicy like chili?? whatever!!! huhuhu~ ape yg Allah nak tunjukkan pada aku dgn perasaan yg tidak enak ini?? sbb aku terlalu gembira? sbb aku lupa pdNYA? sbb Allah nak tunjukkan bahawa tindakan aku salah? sbb Allah nak uji ketaatan aku pdNYA?? huhuhu~ really really really dont like this kind of feeling!!! insecure, nervous, hate, love, angry, happy, sad... all mixed up together... make me really feel bad... feel so bad... i dunno what to think... im thinking what to do... praying a lot might be better rite?? huhuhu~ Allah, plz help me out of these feelings... plz help me go through everything that make me feels bad... plz guide me in everything i do... plz hold my hand with ur love and bless me in every seconds that u gave me... plz Allah, im so weak without you... give me ur strengh n give me ur love... i want ur love to live my life...

-wassalam-